09.10.09 Where has the week gone?

Another week has almost gone, the weekend will be crazy, so thought I better get my wee blog in, or Ali might growl when she comes to stay on Monday… hehe.

Thanks so much for all the words of encouragement and advice. What a great big family we are all, and during the difficult times, it is nice to know you are not alone.

I have had a good week so far, in my food choices and exercise, that is. Been feeling more positive, and had a couple of enlightening moments.

On Monday I made the pantry more ”safe” and threw out some lollies – and ”released” my addiction to them… it actually felt great!!! Yah, and have avoided the carrot cake that has been at work all week, and all those other evil food choices…

Not sure I am feeling ”positive” about seeing Damian and Phyllis on Monday night, (would have preferred to be back to goal when I saw them next) but I am telling myself positively, this is all my journey, I am not perfect, just human, and as I have not given up, just had a learning experience for a while ( I needed to learn how to cope with major stress, and not revert back to my old ways).

So, I will hold my head up high, and know in a short time I will be back at goal, and am working hard towards this goal.

One lightbulb moment, was in listening to Damian’s call on Tuesday night when he was discussing about health rather than weight, and realising that even though I had been not as focused  as  I should have been, my body is definitely healthier… Yah

The second lightbulb moment was in relation to our business partner….. I woke up one morning, and realised in a lot of ways he has been treating me in the same way as my ex husband treated me for years…..   Okay, so I can’t walk away from this one, but I am stronger and wont go back to that place either…. so will learn how to cope with this situation and put strategies in place.

Here’s to the new Dawn…  she is in control….. and is focused!

Have a great weekend… hope the snow doesn’t arrive, although as I am writing this, it is pouring outside, so will be back to the inside exercise again over the weekend, and trying to stay warm…at least I have a heater in the office, as it is paperwork and more paperwork for me (along with my exercise)

01.10.09 New Month New Beginning

So much for my blogging at least twice a week… that didn”t last long did it?

I am still struggling to find my form, and put myself first above work and committments, and so am failing to plan my meals and exercise sessions….. hence a bigger Dawn than she should be!

I am still making excuses like ….not enough time, stress of work, an annoying business partner who is trying to drive me crazy I’m sure ….. (and I’m not meaning Grant when I talk about business partner).

But at the end of the day, they are just that… excuses!. I am always going to have stress at times, the business partner is not going to just disappear, lol, so I have to make contingency plans  or coping mechanisms to deal with all these problems so I can re find that focused motivated girl.

Alison has suggested I need to have a rebirthing for this new girl, as the old one’s not there any more, but I need to think on that one a bit more…. haven’t got all this mind stuff sorted yet, can’t quite get my head around it all.

I think there is a lot buried deep within that needs to surface so I can address it and then get on with living, but trouble is, I don’t know what it all is.

Damian suggested I would know what I am hiding from in regards to the weight I used to carry, but trouble is… I don’t.

There is just so much more than we realise to losing weight, eh. It all seemed so easy at the beginning… lose the weight, and then carry on. But in reality, it is so much more than that….and that is what I am struggling with…..

I am slim, I am eating healthy, and I am fit……    fake it until you make it, says Phyllis.

I will try and find more time to tune more into the challengers and our conference calls and revisit them more often, like I did do on the first challenge.

Take care everyone.