What a pain in the butt I am, I can’t seem to make the good habits last long… had a really good week, felt really motivated at long last, felt more like the girl that completed the first challenge, went for a long bush walk with a wonderful friend on Saturday, then completely lost it again Saturday night and Sunday, straight back to the bad food choices.
I don’t know if anyone else has their brain constantly thinking about food all the time, but mine does. I am working away on the computer or talking to people, and it is there thinking about bad choices, it doesn’t think about fruit, or good food choices though. It is really wierd, man, that other side of me has a really bad demon!
So anyway, here I am again, didn’t want to get on the scales this morning, thought I would have put on a bit , but no, totally disallusioned, yuk!!!! Even more weight to release… I am never going to be back down to goal by the retreat. How awful, feel even more like a failure, and I know Iam supposed to see this as a challenge, not berate myself, but I am really good at beating myself up, but not so good about the positive praise. Lots to learn eh.
I know my thyroid functions got all out of wack in the winter as we don’t see any sun, lol, and that really plays havoc with energy, tiredness, motivation and moods, but I HAVE TO STOP making excuses and get on with it.
Weigh in tomorrow, and will be another gain if I don’t pull myself together. Work hard, exercise lots when I get home…. I did do 30 minutes this morning, but was just a walk, no little jogs as had no energy.
Stay strong
HI Dawn
I am so understanding how you feel. I battle the same feelings.
I could go on but I will not. What I suggest is you put out an SOS to Damian and ask him to contact you. I have done this twice this challenge (once this morning) and I am on track. He helps to put things in perspective and has great ideas for just YOU, which may get lost in group talks.
You CAN lose the weight in 2.5 weeks…PLEASE contact him. Don’t give up.
Jo V
Ah Bugger! Ah well, soldier on mate! The stupid thing about all this to-ing and fro-ing that we do is that we know what to do about it! Stop beating up on yourself, you’ll go down the consoling yourself with food path and we DON’T want that!!! I know how you are feeling, and yes I do do the same thing with the food choices being forefront in my mind 24/7. It’s always going to be a choice.
If you can’t seen to make the choices for your health then think about what you’d be giving him. Drastic I know, but it just may work! 
Damian told me at the last Retreat that when the focus goes from the weight and numbers on the scales to the whole health thing, the weight will just fall off. Maybe if you think of the bad choices as poison and then think of giving that poison to your grandson….. You think that will help?
Can’t wait till the retreat to see you again!
Bex
Hi Dawn, sorry to hear it’s been such a battle… I get it, and I agree with Bex too… the more we focus on weight and numbers, the more we think about food. It’s hard sometimes, but thinking health is the only way to move forward. You’ll get there! Take care, Desi x
Hi Dawn. Sorry to hear you’re struggling. Remember Phyliss’s words – it’s the 6 inches between your ears you need to deal with. You need a switch to flick when you start thinking bad food. Stamp your foot and change your thoughts to something nice. maybe time with the grandchildren, a holiday with Grant, a funny fond memory. Make it positive as it’s the negative thoughts that stir up the emotions that send us back to where we’ve come from and also – you don’t need to control everything. Let some stuff just happen. Remember we’re heading for tomorrow not yesterday so plan for it in your work, food, friends, entertainment, sleep time and when you get to tomorrow you will know what to expect, no surprises, no regrets, no time to worry about bad choice food.
See you in a few days – you’ll get through this. Ali.
7 sleeps to go!
Hi Dawn! Just wondering how you’re doing… are you still around for the 3rd challenge? Did you go to the retreat? Hope all is well, love, Desi
OI!!! update please? Are you better now? not sick anymore. How’s it going now? Did we sort out your headspace on the retreat? Come on!! Tell all!! lol
Love ya!!
Bex