What a pain in the butt I am, I can’t seem to make the good habits last long… had a really good week, felt really motivated at long last, felt more like the girl that completed the first challenge, went for a long bush walk with a wonderful friend on Saturday, then completely lost it again Saturday night and Sunday, straight back to the bad food choices.
I don’t know if anyone else has their brain constantly thinking about food all the time, but mine does. I am working away on the computer or talking to people, and it is there thinking about bad choices, it doesn’t think about fruit, or good food choices though. It is really wierd, man, that other side of me has a really bad demon!
So anyway, here I am again, didn’t want to get on the scales this morning, thought I would have put on a bit , but no, totally disallusioned, yuk!!!! Even more weight to release… I am never going to be back down to goal by the retreat. How awful, feel even more like a failure, and I know Iam supposed to see this as a challenge, not berate myself, but I am really good at beating myself up, but not so good about the positive praise. Lots to learn eh.
I know my thyroid functions got all out of wack in the winter as we don’t see any sun, lol, and that really plays havoc with energy, tiredness, motivation and moods, but I HAVE TO STOP making excuses and get on with it.
Weigh in tomorrow, and will be another gain if I don’t pull myself together. Work hard, exercise lots when I get home…. I did do 30 minutes this morning, but was just a walk, no little jogs as had no energy.
Stay strong
