Well, I can finally say for the first time on this second challenge that my mind is finally back on the job in hand and in the right frame.
It has taken a lot of weight gain and time, but am finally feeling more positive and motivated…. but it took me to realise that if I kept on eating the wrong food choices and put on the weight as quickly as I did last week, when I was so down and disgusting, it would only take me eight weeks to get back to where I had started from! Talk about mind blowing!!! and a reality check.
I am not going down that track, so have got rid of this sad self -conscious person, and got back to the motivated one, albeit a very tired one. I realised I will not do myself or the business any good being overweight and tired etc, so am now back to focusing on making time for exercise at 5am before work ,and doing another 30 minutes as soon as I get home form work, before I continue with other work.
I know I feel better after eating good choices and exercise, so that is my focus again.
I am going on the retreat now… pretty daunting as I have lost so much fitness, but as a lovely friend told me, it is a waste of energy worrying about what other people think, the most important thing, is I am going, I will do the best I can and I am back on track and this is definitely for life…. I will learn to continue at 90/10 or 80/20 and control my bad eating habits.
Have a great day, go hard and strong…. goal again , here I come
