And I won’t say sorry- even though I am really good at it.
I know it’s been a long time, (a month is it Bex ) and I wont make excuses, even though life has been absolutely crazy, but the biggest reason has been feeling sorry for myself, and feeling like a failure, as I have really gone off the rails and reverted back to my old insecure self who depended on food to cope with the stress etc.
So hence, I feel like a beached whale, and Phyllis is really correct when she says you actually feel worse than when you did at your heaviest point. In my eye’s , when I look in the mirror I still see myself as looking really heavy, and even though Grant tells me I still look good, I don’t see that. Funny Huh?
Anyway, No excuses, I have to get off this treadmill that life has become, and get back to focusing in some “me” time, and that will consist of exercise and eating well again. I know the rules, I can apply them again, and I will get back to goal. And I will become passionate about being healthy and this programme again.
However, it’s late, I’m really tired, it’s been so full on since the middle of April, but I will do my best to check in and describe my feelings more fully each day, and take an interest in how the rest of “our family” are going, and I will stop feeling a failure, and be the success I know I can be again.
We are all so worth it!!!!!
Be good, exercise well, and stay away from the junk foods!
Hi Dawn great to see your blog again and you are not a failure you have come so far and done so well yourself and also helping others and life is busy thats just part of life Kepp up the great work and thanks so much for the visit the other day just what i needed too
Lianne