And I won’t say sorry- even though I am really good at it.
I know it’s been a long time, (a month is it Bex ) and I wont make excuses, even though life has been absolutely crazy, but the biggest reason has been feeling sorry for myself, and feeling like a failure, as I have really gone off the rails and reverted back to my old insecure self who depended on food to cope with the stress etc.
So hence, I feel like a beached whale, and Phyllis is really correct when she says you actually feel worse than when you did at your heaviest point. In my eye’s , when I look in the mirror I still see myself as looking really heavy, and even though Grant tells me I still look good, I don’t see that. Funny Huh?
Anyway, No excuses, I have to get off this treadmill that life has become, and get back to focusing in some “me” time, and that will consist of exercise and eating well again. I know the rules, I can apply them again, and I will get back to goal. And I will become passionate about being healthy and this programme again.
However, it’s late, I’m really tired, it’s been so full on since the middle of April, but I will do my best to check in and describe my feelings more fully each day, and take an interest in how the rest of “our family” are going, and I will stop feeling a failure, and be the success I know I can be again.
We are all so worth it!!!!!
Be good, exercise well, and stay away from the junk foods!
