27.05.09 A god bite

Well it was another huge day yesterday, so no time to blog, oops and after I promised too, but sorry body, it was 12.45am when we finally hit the sack, after meetings and finally getting home, but at least it was also no time to eat, lol, apart from the good food we managed to cram in between work and meetings.

But because we knew what this week was going to be like, Grant and I cooked a bit over the weekend and made up some vegetable frittata and smoked chicken casserole, so hey presto, lunch and dinner made for when we don’t have time…. forward planning goes a long way, and stops that bad mindset.

So this morning, as I hadn’t done any exercise yesterday, it was back to the 30 minute walk/jog on treadmill at 6am, and I really gotta admit it, I do feel less stressed and more motivated for doing it, another long day at work, then back home, stoke the fire, coz man it’s freezing down here, then back for another 30 minute session of weights and cross trainer.  Put tea in the oven to heat, make the salad. I am so proud of myself….

It’s funny, you are going along so well until you spot the bag of coconut rough sitting on the bench that one of our clients made for us, and which unfortunately Grant bought home. MMmmm coconut rough…. salad….????

Yeh you guessed, the will power’s not that good, but mercy of mercies, I managed to stop at one…. Yeehah, I will call that a god bite and a minor victory … I did manage to stop myself, wouldn’t have done that last week, or the week before, so I will call that progress.

So tomorrow, it will have to be a good exercise session, and I passed the bags of coconut rough onto my son Jason’s partner… she loves chocolate, and yeah I know it’s not good for her either, but at least it got it out of my sight, (and now out of mind)

I will get stronger, my mind set will stay focused on my goal, and no god bites tomorrow!!!!

Have a great one

25.05.09 Another good day

Well, I have managed another good day… I evenmanaged to get up, or should I say, Grant “persuaded” me to get up at 5.30am so I could have my lemon ginger drink then exercise, then breakfast and I must admit it does help to make you feel better, even if you do start the morning dragging the heels a bit to start the exercise, but the end result is worth it.

I survived the long day without eating anything bad, no cravings until I got home, (after avoiding the carrot cake at work) but went straight inside, got the fire cranked up, then went and exercised again, so avoided the temptations. It actually feels great knowing I am going to commit to the  routine I had before on the first challenge, and once I am back at goal, I will just have to rework how much I can fit into my schedule, but I do have to concentrate on planning and achieving some “me” time, as if I burn out through too much work, bad choices and no exercise I will not be any use to anyone.

One step at a time, one day at a time, at the moment, until I am strong enough to say “no” to my cravings and mind… I don’t need bad choice foods, I need good mind foods to keep me going.

Good luck for weigh in tomorrow, hope it’s a good one, and I will be a little lighter again… YEH!

24.05.09 I’m Back

And I won’t say sorry- even though I am really good at it.

I know it’s been a long time, (a month is it Bex ) and I wont make excuses, even though life has been absolutely crazy, but the biggest reason has been feeling sorry for myself, and feeling like a failure, as I have really gone off the rails and reverted back to my old insecure self who depended on food to cope with the stress etc.

So hence, I feel like a beached whale, and Phyllis is really correct when she says you actually feel worse than when you did at your heaviest point. In my eye’s , when I look in the mirror I  still see myself as looking really heavy, and even though Grant tells me I still look good, I don’t see that. Funny Huh?

Anyway, No excuses, I have to get off this treadmill that life has become, and get back to focusing in some “me” time, and that will consist of exercise and eating well again. I know the rules, I can apply them again, and I will get back to goal. And I will become passionate about being healthy and this programme again.

However, it’s late, I’m really tired, it’s been so full on since the middle of April, but I will do my best to check in and describe my feelings more fully each day, and take an interest in how the rest of “our family” are going, and I will stop feeling a failure, and be the success I know I can be again.

We are all so worth it!!!!!

Be good, exercise well, and stay away from the junk foods!